Still waiting on the euphoria
Waiting for the release
Waiting on the relief
Waiting for the erosion of the memories inscribed on her brain
Waiting on the silencing of her innermost thoughts
She fondles the cash in her hand
Green, warm, soft
She looks to her left
He's still sleep
Still resting
And still at peace
As if all is well w/ the world
She looks back at her hands
Witness them hold the price of her soul
The price of her treasure
The price of her diamonds, rubies, and gold
She's taken back to those moments
And again she sachet
Again the music coursed through her veins
Again she waited for the euphoria
And again it never came
She's taken back to those moments
And again the mattress drowns her
Again the sheets choke her
Again feeling escapes her
As again a guy pokes her
The hot shower could only wash his nameless children off her breasts
But couldn't wash away all the emotion that was on her chest
Still waiting on the euphoria
She fondles the cash in her hands
Insurance money she's collected from the death of her dreams
Hush money for her heart
To silence its piercing screams
Wait...
Just wait...
Wait for the euphoria
Silence becomes her enemy
Time becomes her abuser
Each moment spent becomes part of her nightmare
Still waiting...
Waiting on this to feel right
Waiting for the euphoria
Her fingers dance across the money
The tears cascade down her face
How did she get this way?
How did she get to this place?
How did she become this person?
Then she realizes that it all began...
With her search for euphoria