God of our silent tears
Why must my tears be silent?
God of our weary years
Why can't my cry be heard?
Surely been 'buked
And surely been scorned
Why hasn't anyone rescued me from my suffering?
Maybe because they don't know I'm suffering
But, why don't they know I'm suffering?
Because they can't hear my cry
But, why can't my cry be heard?
Because my tears have been silenced
Shut up
Hushed
Made invisible before they ever fell from my cheek
So its as if I never cried
As if I was never hurt
As if I never felt pain
As if my heart was never broken
As if my smile never left
As if...
God of our silent tears
Why must my tears be silent?
And God of our weary years
Why can't my cry be heard?
Surely been hurt
So why can't anyone see my pain?
No one can see my pain
And no one can hear my cry
Its as if I'm invisible
Or better yet...
As if I don't even exist
So...
God of our silent tears
Why must my tears even fall?

(c)2008

BET Awards 08

Ok, so lets talk about the BET Awards. First of all, I'm highly upset that Usher lip sung his entire performance! I'm like what is this?!?! I felt totally robbed. However, the dancing on the moving walkways was hot. So upon seeing Chirs Brown and the umbrella chick sitting together at yet another awards show, I'm convinced that they're an item. Neyo's outfit was banging! I was really feeling the brown ensemble. It was nice. DL Hughley was a little funny at the beginning but all in all he was a horrible host. So maybe I've been living under a rock, but when did Terrence Howard start pulling this whole guitar stunt? It was hot though. Chris Brown won best male R&B, and I'm not surprised. Not sure he deserved it but whatever! Jeezy's performance would've been hotter than it was if it wasn't for all that dang on censoring!!! It was so annoying. Maybe this is just strictly personal, but I'm sick of Chris Paul losing to Kobe! It sickens me. Keisha Cole know she really could've invested in buying a sister a better looking, and better fitting dress because the boobs about to pop out thing has not, is not, and never will be hot! Her mom looked ok though. Her performance however, sucked. It was worse than her sister in that awful dress, and Lil' Kim was undressed...as usual. Nia Long's dress was really cute, minus the pockets though...I just don't get that! And I'm convinced that Morris Chestnut's stylist needed to be pimp slapped for having him out there looking like that! Ew! Missy won best female hip-hop, yeah whatever. Neyo's performance was hot, and the Jabawockeez (spl. chck.) killed it! The Dream won best new artist and I really think it should've either been Estelle or Chrissette Michelle. Alicia Keys was straight even though I don't like "Teenage Love Affair". But it was definately hot how she had the girl groups come out there. En Vogue killed it. SWV was hot too, but Lord knows they've put on some pounds over the years! And does T-Boz smoke because she sounded like she was dying of lung cancer! Niecy Nash was hilarious! After hearing her I immediately went out and got me a white kid...ok no not really. Anyway, Kanye won best male hip hop, and once again I'm not surprised. I thought it was a nice gesture of him to bring Weezy up on stage with him when he accepted his award. T-Pain looked a hot mess as usual, and to make matters worse...I HAD TO SEE HIM TWICE!!! Big Boi and Ludacris were flame! UGK's "International Players' Anthem" won best video and I'm so glad! That video rocked. Marvin Sapp put on for all the save, sanctified, and filled with the holy ghost people, and then won best gospel. Chris Brown's performance was hot! I'm immensely glad that he didn't lip sing, and the words in the water was hot. I wouldn't be surprised if Rhianna and Ciara have beef after that performance though because it was looking a little steamy up there! Ciara was a little close and from the look on Rhianna's face, she was not too happy about it. Al Green won the lifetime achievement award. Jill Scott...is a beast! Anthony Hamilton...tore it up, and kind of favors Al Green in his younger days. Maxwell...o my God! It was so good to see him again, and he cut his hair! I was like wow! I was unaware that Al Green was now Rev. Al Green, but I do know that he still got it! I'm glad he kept his acceptance speech quick and to the point. Observing the crowd during his performance...does Neyo have a girlfriend? And does Queen Latifah have a BOYfriend? Sheryl Underwood looked a hot mess. She is extra crispy! I really would love to know who this lady in the audience was that Al Green put on blast during in his performance! Then, I was really going to need Busta Rhymes to get off his imaginary horn! UGK know they was clowing! Moving on, I am also convinced that Terrence and Rocsi are definately an item. But what I would really love to know is why she don't ever shout out Power 92 when she on 106 & Park? I mean has she forgotten that those are the people that gave her her start? Lets not be ungrateful! Weezy won viewer's choice and I'm mad he had to bring everybody and they dang on mama up there with him when he accepted his award, but at the same rate, I'm not surprised; he always does that. Rhianna's performance was hot, and I love that song, but I also noticed how the camera kept cutting to Chris Brown! The humanitarian award went to Quincy Jones. Nelly's performance...yea his career is just about over so I suggest he marry Ashanti while he still has enough cash to buy her a nice ring. O...and Fergie...looked awful. CLEARLY her face has not recovered from that meth addiction. Best female r&b went to Alicia Keys and I felt she deserved it. Last, but surely not least, my baby rocked! Minus the T-Pain aspect, Lil' Wayne blazed fire on that stage! It was an excellent way to end a mediocre show.

*Bitch I'm Back On My Grizzy*

OMG!!! I can't believe how long its been since I've last blogged. Well...what to say? First, I want to thank all of my friends that loved and supported me throughout everything. Where would I be without you guys? You definately keep me sane. I also want to take the time to congratulate all graduates from the class of 08. Im very proud of you guys. Though I'm sad to see you go, and I don't know how I'm going to make it through the rest of my years at the hell hole I attend known as high school, im glad that you are furthering your education; taking those first steps to becoming bigger and better people. So...yea...school is out. It's officially summer. Im doing something like enjoying myself...well as far as sitting at the house doing close to absolutely nothing can stand to be enjoyable. Do I miss anybody? I'm not sure. Not really lol. I guess the memories of them are still to fresh for me to miss them yet...oh well...it happens. As far as putting people on blast...I want to put on blast the one female that throughout this school year has proven herself to be an extremely phony person. No names necessary because that creates drama, but i find it amazing how she wonders how and why it is that she seems to be losing all of her friends! I mean lets try this on for size...YOU'RE PHONY, UNTRUSTWORTHY, AND UGLY!!! (and face it...nobody wants ugly friends...well at least not that ugly) Anyway, where as the conversation we shared on the last day of school was nice and cordial, the anger is still there. Do not be fooled. Everything is NOT fine and dandy. When the school year starts again nothing will have changed. Well what about second chances? I gave you a second chance in case you forgot. My patience runs thin, and for you, it is completely depleted. On a more exciting note (I guess), I have all honors classes next year! YAY!!! GO ME!!! Unfortunately, double math is taking up my elective so I can't be in choir...but it'll all be worth it when im in calculus senior year. I managed to actually make it through this school year lol. 4 referrals and plenty of enemies(students and teachers alike lol), but I made it none the less. Next year is just another challange. To remain sane? Yes. To remain cordial? Yes. To remain legal? Yes. I've realized that I am always only on the edge of greatness...next year...maybe I will actually cross over into greatness...maybe...just maybe...